i've grown up with a recurring dream: i'm floating in a river carried by a current i cannot see or feel. my body a rag doll to the unfeeling child called fate. without realizing it, i've submerged, yet feel nothing just as before. i thought maybe, after all this time, i'd violently awake as my ethereal lungs filled with cold water, but i still gently float to the sandy riverbed, hardly feeling a thing. my eyes open slowly, heavy with tears. it used to affect me when i was much younger. but now, i simply wipe my tears and let the current i cannot see or feel lull me back to sleep.